Eighteen was the age of discussing problems of subjects with classmates, of working hard for the college entrance examination; the time when I was ambitious and energetic.
I was a happy person with a loving family and a lot of friends. I was a typical-looking girl, but I had a smile that could brighten a bleak winter day. My black eyes were always full of struggle or fight. I performed well in the sports meeting and on the stage of art festival as well as I did in my study. My best trait was my personality. What made me special was not seen from the outside: I had a special love for life.
At age nineteen, my life had a breakdown. In addition to the difficulty to adopt myself to the college life, which was totally new and full of adversities to me, as I had to change my life pattern and the way of study. I lost my first romance, leaving me doubting myself---- I wondered if I had the ability to get along with others, to judge between right and wrong and even to love. I felt small and insignificant. I had an identity crisis. Everything seemed just out of reach, absent-mindedly in class, stammering before strangers, bursting into tears in the dormitory without knowing why. I felt like I was floating in an ocean of sadness, not sure how much longer I could hang on.
During the second term of my college life, I confessed to my friends that I was suffering from my blues. I could not take the emotional pain any more. I needed help if I wanted to get through it soon.
A friend sent me a photo. As I sawed it, my eyes were focused on it for quite a long time. It was a picture of adorable girl with a carefree smile. A gesture of “V” showed she was full of life. It took me a while to recognize that it was I. I felt a chill go down my spine. Fragments of those blue days fleeted across me. Right then, I knew that I had been a strong and energetic girl and that I had to become ambitious and happy like that again.
It has been over one year since I “rediscover” myself. I learned a lifelong lesson: life is nice and never give up. Everyone has challenges in life but everyone can survive. It is of great importance to keep smile, because in the end everything will change for the better again.
Of course, the road of life will still be challenges and obstacles there, but I will pull through with a smile on my face. Sometimes, I think it was strange that I had to look to who I was to regain faith in myself. But I think everyone can look on their early years for it was then when they knew how to live in peace and happiness. |
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